Welcome to our website! Frank-Menchise.com (Page 4)
The stories in this page might not be as amazing as we would like them to be, but they are real life stories.
Midway love life observation
Welcome to my hub, midway love life story
These are my lover’s laments;
In order to overcome these laments, I would like to become a writer for love
We all very well know that to succeed and do anything well, one must be well prepared in order to be able to do it well. So, if it happens that the person that wants to achieve any goals during their lives have been lucky in their early life, and have had a good education in their youth, then in their lives they should be able to hold a good job, and they can do things in such a way that they could be above the average person, therefore any person that has been lucky and has been trained in their early life would be a lucky person indeed, because whatsoever that person wants to achieve during their lives will be easy for such a person to achieve, or at least it should be easier than the average person.
But there are people that did not have the chance to learn when they were young, so, they might feel as if they are in a dreadful position, and this is how I have been feeling, because all this has happened to me personally, and because of this situation now I would like to become a writer for my own personal reasons, or should I say the truth and say, because I have fallen in love at my advances age with a learned person, I have become very sensitive about my lack of learning, but if one falls in love, one should know that love is love and it does not want to listen to any reasons and therefore it makes the lover do many foolish things; therefore today I would like to become a writer in order to feel a bit more equal to the person I have fallen in love with; but because I lack that writer training it is going to be a lot harder for me to achieve that. You see I have a dream of becoming a writer in my old age and write many things including my own painful love life story that never happened, because I was not well prepared to reach her heart, so I have started to dream to become a writer, in the hope of being able to reach her heart.
Now because I have not been trained in my case my dream of becoming a writer seems much bigger than my ability to achieve it, so I have to try my best hoping that somehow I will be able to reach my goal, this is one of the reasons why I am writing the story of my life and my unwanted love story.
Welcome to my website
My name is Frank Menchise
and we are going to write in this website an old man life story, being my real life story
THIS IS THE WEBSITE NAVIGATION BAR FOR FRANK MENCHISE.COM
To navigate to all my other yola-sites click on this link, http://menfranco.blogspot.com, and then click on my Yola links therein.
To navigate all the pages of this site, Frank-Menchise click on the links above the title and picture at the top of this page.
To navigate to some of Frank Menchise blogs, click on the links here under.
To navigate to other Frank Menchise Google sites, click on the links here under.www.adherents.com/Religions_By_Adherents.html
Falling in love is one of the most natural things that is going to happen in our lives. But love brings with it many unexpected things, which sometimes are good but they may also be bad, and some people are lucky in love and some are not.
One of the most popular love story of course would be Juliet and Romeo, but it does not seem to end well.
There are many other love stories that end well and the lover are happy ever after.
Here I have reasons to believe that everyone of us has a love story to tell, but sometimes it would be too hard to tell the story when it is only going to break your heart.
My unwanted love story
Dear reader whoever you may be, I know that I have already said that I am going to tell you the story of my life here in Hub Pages, but because of my lack of training as a writer, I seem to go around in circles as if there are always other things to say, in order to get ready for the real story to begin. So I hope you understand my position, I want also to tell you that when I first started to write the story of my life, I felt as if I was going back to school to learn how to become a better writer. Well this is how I feel even now while I am writing this story of my life for the first time. Anyhow I may have to write another few articles, before I would be able to start my life story from the beginning of my life when I was a child, because as I said, at this very moment I am still thinking to write about my unwanted love story.
Now that I have explained that let me introduce myself first of all, because I believe that I have not done that yet: My real name is Frank Menchise and I am just a simple bloke, and here I would like to welcome you to read my life story and the ‘Observation of my life; but as I have already mentioned above do not expect my writings to be well written because I have not been trained to be a writer, and I am not even a native of the English language, therefore I am only a try hard writer that wants to say something about my own life, because my unwanted love happening has pushed me to write about it.
I need to say that, even knowing that I am not a good writer, I have come to a resolution, and I wish to write my own life story and the observations of life in English and then publish them in any ways I can on the Internet. I want and I need to write my life story just because, I need most of all to improve my own knowledge of the English language, and by writing my life observations I will have the opportunity of reaching a higher standard of knowledge of the English language, which I would not and could not achieve in any other way at my present advanced age.
So for the present time, I can only hope that my writings will be clear enough for somebody to read and understand them, and that the readers would accept my writings just the way that I have been able to write them, because as I said I am writing this in order to become a better writer.
Life observation on love
During my life I have always liked to observe whatever has been happening around me, and I believe that there are a lot of other people that are doing just the same thing. So, one could say that observing is just a way of life that everybody does, because we can’t help it. Since it is always very important to know what’s happening around oneself in order to survive. And in doing so we can’t help to make our own life observations about other things also, and also about life itself, and about how life affects oneself and the others around the self, everybody has got to observe what’s going on around themselves, even if one lives just a simple life like I did myself.
Therefore because I am just like everybody else, I happen to have made my own observations during my own life, and most of my observations are just ordinary observations. But during my life, there has been one of my observations of life that took me really by surprise, and I was shocked by it very much, not only at the time when that event happened, but also for a very long time afterward, and that event being one of the most important of my observations of life, it is actually going to be the event that I will be writing about in my observations’ writings and in my Dreamland writings, because sometimes we like to dream what we cannot have.
I have also to say that, this life event that I am talking about, has happened to me during the later part of my life, at a time when I was assuming that because of my mature age nothing could or would shock me, or even surprise me at all. But this happening did really take me by surprise, and it also upset me very much, and therefore I happen to have learned from this rare event a great deal about human nature, which I am sure that I didn’t know before this event happened, and this human experience has made me change some of my earlier views about our inner feelings about life and about love. And because of this rare event of my life, now I have come to believe that, when one falls in love everything seems to have a different meaning. So, let me say this only once, I am talking about when one falls in love at the wrong time of his life, in a very difficult situation that one cannot even talk about it openly.
As I have just said I cannot talk or even write this event openly, for personal reasons, therefore what I am going to write here will be written in an impersonal way. So, there may be times in our life, (At least for me it has been like that just once in my life.) when we human beings will go crazy about somebody, or perhaps something, and we will desire to have this somebody or something so much that we will try to do anything to reach out for it, in order to make whatever we so much desire our own.
So, at that moment of life when this happens: We will feel that we want to reach out and do whatever we have to do without sparing any efforts, and we hope so much to succeed in our attempt, believing that it will make ourselves feel better in the end, if we succeed to reach our goal. We’ll have to do it because the desire of getting whatever we want so much is so great that we can’t escape it, and even if our reasoning may tell us that what we are doing is not exactly right, we will keep doing it anyhow; Because, we will be driven from the inborn human nature that’s within us, which will not let us go even for a moment. Therefore even if we would like to stop doing it, we could not be able to stop it, because our inborn human nature will override all our objections. And that’s what sometimes happens in real life, and which has definitely happened to me. Here I am talking about that God given human nature, which Mother Nature in conjunction with God has given us at birth, in the hope that it will be able to guide us the natural way during our lives. But sometimes this same human-nature that is supposed to guide us the easy in a natural way may overreact, and make things happen to a very high degree just like what has happened to me.
Driven by this inner force as I have been driven once during my life, and this happening in my case did last a very long time; we will try to do our utmost in order to do something better than we have ever done before, so that we can reach the goal that we have in mind. And even if we know that it will be very hard for us to achieve the goal that we have in mind, and there is a risk that we won’t succeed at all, we will still try to do it anyhow, because our inner self drive will not let us go.
So, there are times during one’s own life that one would like to do or at least dreams about of being able to do something that may set him up to a higher standard, where one has never been before. And one hopes that by doing so, the interested person that one loves and wants to reach, and also the rest of the community would take notice of such achievements. Therefore one starts to dream about what one can do, in order to achieve one’s own dream of success, in the hope of impressing the other party and succeed to reach her heart.
All these love feelings with no love happenings have pushed me to write for myself only, because I was forced to write in the hope that through writing I would be able to reach her heart.
Writing for yourself only
Usually any writer writes because he wants people to read his own writings: But in my case when I started to write it was different, because I didn’t want just anybody to read my writings, because they were written for a special person only. And since this special person could not read them, because they were being written on our home computer, I didn’t want anybody else to read them at all, and even less from any member of my family. So instead of inviting a reader to read my writings, I had to try to turn them away. And I have done that, and I have used several ways to turn them off. Some of the ways that I have used may seem even crazy, but I was so desperate to have some privacy of my own at the time, so I just wrote whatever seemed strong enough to keep any would be reader away.
Here one may ask. Why do you write it at all, if you don’t want anybody to read it?
Well, here I want to point it out to you, that my love dream has made me write a lot about my love feelings, and even though they were only painful love feelings, I had to keep writing them: so that I could keep dreaming about my love and not despair, and while I was writing and dreaming I felt that I was trying to prepare myself for the future, so I was hoping that there would be a future for me with this special person.
Having done that, I found that I could not forget about my love dream writings, because they were and are a part of myself, and therefore I could never willingly destroy them. So I have been thinking of finding a way how to save them, and this is what I am trying to do just now. I have also to say that I have been able to write about my love dream, or dreams, because we have a computer nowadays, and therefore it is a lot easier for me to write on the computer, and the computer allows me to store my writings in it. And also because I have been able to write on the computer, whatever and whenever I could and the computer allows me to correct or change my writings, so I have been able to write. But if these events had happened in the past when there was no computer, then I would not have been able to write anything at all.
I need to point out that the computer has made it easy for me to write what’s on my mind, but it has got a problem with privacy. That’s why I have written what I have written above only, when I could have said even more. Anyhow, I believe that this hub is becoming too long to say much more. So, see you with my next hub, where I am going to start telling you the story of my own life, my memories and my observations
Simple man life observation
Welcome to my article ‘Life observations’. In this article we will be talking about; Simple man life observation; Observe and learn from life; let me talk about my childhood and my childhood pains; one can still learn from the hurting part of life.
My life memories and observations
We have to learn from our own life observations, and then when we can try to use those observation to guide us during our life, if we remember them well, they could be like our own shadow that follows us everywhere we go and it never fails, so let us all learn from life by observing whatever happens around us. I know that sometimes we might want to forget what has happened to us, because it is painful to recall, but even those painful memories are worth remembering, because they might teach us to avoid them next time. Now let us look at my own life story and observation and perhaps compare them with today’s living.
Looking at the ways that we live today, one could certainly say that living today is not as simple and easy as it used to be, because of the changing ways of living that progress has brought with it, and living one’s own life today is a very complex event that needs to be looked at closely, even if it is just a normal simple life of a simple man like me.
You see, in the old times it was easier, because life usually would follow the same pattern as the generation before us, so everybody would copy the previous generation. But today is different, because things have changed and continue to change, so, we have to change also if we want to succeed in life.
Today when we start thinking about the beginning of our own life no one could ever tell and no one could ever even guess what life would or could be bringing to any of us. Of course the best way for any of us is to plan ahead how we would like to live our own life; and here I mean that we should really make up our own mind about what we want to do with our own life, and then try hard to keep to the chosen plan if we can.
But even if one plans well ahead, there are times during our life when one has got to do whatever is most appropriate at that particular time in order to survive and thrive, and be able to earn our own living. Therefore even if we have made up our own mind, and perhaps we have decided that we wants to study, or we wants to learn a trade, or do something special during our own life, it may not happen just the way we have planned, because life events may override those decisions, so we may end up doing a different job, or being something else other than what we had planned to do in the beginning. But then because these things happen we learn from life what we need to do and we do them since that is the best way to solve the problem. You see, we need to observe and lean, it is necessary to do that even if it is done just to survive those times that we happen to live in.
We should observe life events and learn from them
We have to learn to accept life just the way it comes, because this is the only thing that we could be able to do, without upsetting ourselves too much; I am saying this because, during my life I have had a few of those experiences that are not the best; but I could do nothing about it to change the outcome, so I had to accept them and continue to live the best way I could.
Today, I am looking back at my life that I have already lived thinking that, I have already lived the most important part of my life. You see, I happen to be in my sixties while I am writing this page here for the first time; so, I can look back at my life and wonder at the great changes of lifestyles that we have been living in this new present era including myself. While I am looking at these changes I also wonder at the events that have changed my lifestyle, and also of how it all has been happening and still keeps happening and changing even now while I am writing here.
Therefore, right at this very moment I am wondering why I am writing this at all, because writing is new to me and so it is still another one of my lifestyle changes, which has been brought about from my changing life events, You see when I was young I could never have guessed that one day I could be writing something and be able to publish it in something called the Internet, and I would be writing in a language that was and is not my native tongue.
All this has happened to me, because there have been lots of changes since I was young, there were life events that have changed my lifestyle during my life, and so they have forced me to change and to adjust with them as required; and it was one of these changes during one stage of my life, when I felt the need to start writing, so that I could fulfil one of my emotional personal needs. And in doing so I have written a few things, which I would very much like to preserve at least for the time being, although sometimes I wonder whether my personal writings are really worth to be saved.
But here I am talking about my own personal writings, and even if they are worth nothing to the rest of the world, they are my writings and experience of life and I would like to keep them forever while I am still alive, and perhaps even after if they could make sense to anybody, so that, if one day somebody happens to read them they will be able to understand them. So, now I will try to write them down in a way that people will understand them. So here are my life events and changes, according to the observations of my own life, as it evolved starting from when I was a child, so let me talk about my childhood now and the problems that I went through then.
Talking about my childhood
Dear readers, now let me go back in time and talk about my early childhood, so that I would be able to write a record of my life; I was born near the end of the year 1938, and that is before the Second World War started. I was the second child in my family, my brother is only thirteen months older than myself, and for my parents my birth was too soon after their first born. They wanted more children of course, but they wanted them to be born a little more far apart; so I was welcome and unwelcome at once.
I was born a good healthy boy, but in those days medicine was not as advanced as nowadays, so they didn’t immunize children as much as they do today, because of this lack of immunisation as a child I caught the Whooping Cough, and although I was lucky and survived it, since then I have kept coughing on for the rest of my life, and therefore I have never been able to completely get rid of my coughing problem, because the Whooping Cough most of the time leaves this condition to whoever caches it for the rest of their lives. This is how my own mother has explained it to me my coughing condition.
Another health scar happened when I was three or four years old: I was playing with my brother who was older than me by one year, and while we were playing I don’t know why he hit me with a heavy boot in my face; so that, my nose started bleeding, and it bled for a very long time, that even my parents became very worried, they tried everything they knew and somehow they helped me stop the bleeding, but since then my nose has been bleeding very easily. My nose bleeding has been a real problem with me when I was a kid, and even when I was an adult it kept bleeding very easily. But when I was a teenager has been the worst, and my nose used to bleed day after day up to three times a day. Part of my nose bleeding problem could also be attributed to the way of life that I was living in the farm, as in summer times I had to be in the hot sun a lot of times, and the heat expansion would make my nose bleed, and in winter times because I would catch cold in the cold weather my nose would be bleeding also; but part of this nose bleeding could be attributed to the boot in the face that I received from my brother, as I believe that it weakened my blood vessels in my nose.
However the blood loss and a poor diet in the farm made me grow very skinny, so skinny that one could say that I had all the signs of malnutrition, I was so skinny that one could count my bony ribs, and I was also so light that other boys would sometimes make fun of me, when we were playing and they used to lift me up.
I need to say that, all these hardships and poor health that I have suffered when I was young; they are all due to the greatest drawback of my life, which happened when I was about five years old. Because then Fate struck a heavy blow to my own parents, as my father and three work horses perished from a lightning strike, while they were carrying on a cart one of the last loads of wheat of the season from a far away field.
The greatest drawback of my life
When this great misfortune happened, we were left with no father and with great
financial loss. With the death of my father from this most dreadful misfortune
everything changed for the worst for us children, therefore, all the good
chances that I/we could have had in our younger life were taken away, and all
the dreams that my parents had for us children came to an abrupt end.
So after our father misfortune, our family that consisted then, of my mother and two boys and a girl that is including myself, we were left in a very poor position to prepare for a decent future life.
My mother had to rely on her two younger brothers, who were only still teenagers at that time, and they had to help her to run our small family farm, so that we could earn a living, as in those days there was no help from the government.
So when I was about ten years old, because my family could not afford any longer to hire a youth to help in the farm, I was chosen to help in the farm, instead of my brother who was one year older than me, and by right he should have been chosen to help.
So, I instead of continuing to go to school and get a better education, I had to go to help in our family farm, and this became later on the greatest drawback of my life.
The way of life in the farm was very boring when I was a child, as it had been for centuries before my time. But before my time people didn’t know how to live a better life, so it didn’t matter that much to them at that time, since most of the male farmers then lived in their farms all their lives, and everybody around them would be at the same level of awareness, so, nobody would ever think that life was boring in the farm, as they would happily accept life as it was then, and they didn’t worry if the lot of them were dull people compared to the towns’ people; as it was only because they were uneducated and lived a lonely and boring life, but they were happy just the same and some of us would thing that we were better off than the town people, because there was always something to eat in the farm, compared to the towns’ people who sometimes went hungry, when they had no money.
Anyhow, the way of life that I was living in the farm, which had been all right for my forbears up to the time when I was young, now was becoming old fashioned during my youth, and therefore it was not right any more to live in such a way, because everything was changing quickly.
So, I have been very unfortunate as a young man, because everything that had been unchanged for centuries started to change, and most of the people that were living in the towns were better off than us in the farms, but before my time these people usually depended from the farmers for a living, and now everything seemed to swing the opposite way in their favour.
Because of the changing way of living and farming, it became very hard for us to live in the farm and earn a living, so in the end I had to leave our small family farm, in order to earn a better living somewhere else. And it was then that I realised that all the work that I had done in the farm and what I had learned in the farm as a youth, and the time that I had spent in the farm had been a complete waste of time. Because I had to start all over again somewhere else, and I would be doing something else completely different in order to earn a better living; but these things happen in life and we have to accept them, as there is no other way. The only thing we can do is observe and learn from life.
Therefore because of the changes of life style, which brought about more hardship than usual to the small farm owners, I was forced to leave my small family farm and the town where I was born, in order to find a better living standard away from home.
So, I migrated to Australia.
The hurting part of life
While editing this hub I have realized that I want to add the following in this hub, it seems to me that it is the most appropriate place to write this; here I am talking about the hurting part of live that we had to go through in our young life.
But first of all let me explain also that life means whatever we want it to mean even when it hurts us, as we always learn something from it, so even if I am going to lament my bad luck here-under, we all should take it as a lesson from life.
I need to say that, when one goes through all these hard life experiences in the farm, one knows that it is really hard life farming, but we the farmers kept working in our farms to feed the rest of the community anyhow, and even if we were working our guts out, and while we were doing that we were becoming dull, but we did our part anyhow.
What I am writing about here is something old, but for me it is as if it only happened yesterday, so let me say this like in the present tense; at the time when this was happening the rest of the town’s community doesn’t see it that way, and they think that we are stupid people that just work our guts out, because we are dull and don’t know better.
So this attitude of the community hurts every farming hand very much, and most of all the young farm hands, and those who would become young farmers, since this is the harsh thanks that we receive from the town’s community.
But what’s hurting us the young farmers most of all, it is when they seem to laugh at us because we have become dull compared to themselves; this is the way that we are being treated from the rest of the town’s community and it hurts too much: So we the hurt ones, we feel that we want to shout into their faces that they should be ashamed of themselves because; They have first sacrificed us, as they have put us in a position where we could not improve ourselves, instead of treating us in the same way as they did for themselves, and then they laugh at us because we have become dull. What a shame! Genzano town’s folks, you should be ashamed of yourselves! Because you first sacrifice your own children by sending them to work at a very early age, and then you laugh at their sacrifice, only because through their sacrifice they have become dull. Shame on you Genzano’s folks!
Anyhow, whatever has been, it has been and we can only learn something from it, if we have observed what has happened and learned from it.
What I have written above has been my life and the way that I have lived it up till now, and allow me to say that I have been unlucky to have lived such a hard life, but at the same time I feel lucky now. I have to think that way, because that is the only way to find peace within oneself.
I suppose that what I have been saying above seems already out of time, as if it is hundreds of years old, but it is not, because it all happened during my life, so how are today people going to compare my life story to today’s living is hard to tell, but it would be helpful if they can.
Now I would have liked to talk about the town I have come from, because I believe that it is time for me to tell you about that, which I have reasons to believe that might very well be interesting to know, so that you my readers may understand better what was going on during my young life, but if I do that then the story of my life when I was young will be broken in two parts, so I have decided that in these webpages I am going to continue to tell you the story of my life, and then I will tell you about the town that I come from, Genzano di Lucania, this town is called with this longer name, because there is another Genzano town in Italy and that one is Genzano di Roma. Anyhow I am going to talk about these towns later on, after a tell you most of my young life story.